Down the road

27 August, 2006

I was standing in a corner shop,in a huge line of people waiting to take photo copies. A girl with financial business book from the post graduation dept of Christ college. I smiled and turned towards this old gentleman. A look of exhaution was written across his face. But he had to finish the work he came for. People's lives depended on it! Yea... so did mine. if i dint get bak in time i would be dishonorably discharged from my house.
I then saw the papers he took out for photo copy. they were maths sums and my head snapped to concentration. AHa!he was one of those over enthu dads who do their sons or daughters dirty jobs. He whispered a number of copies. I turned my attention to a relatively younger guy chewing paan! Disgusting... My eyes travelled back to the old uncle with " viboothi pattai" i thought dude must be a tam for sure. At that moment the boy came with the xerox copies and said 60 copies. That got me a little suspicious. the number was too close to comfort.
Hopin that it wouldnt seem very obvious i leaned against the counter and then i saw it. jus like i remember all of them. Every single one of them. And the first thought was i wish i had it in my hand befor i attempted tham and sucked at it. It WAS a math paper for the 10TH grade students. THIS gentleman was ACTUALLY holding the strings to SO MANY lives. People's lives DID depend on That very slim sheet of paper.
Out of that SELFISH WISH of "oh! i wish i had it before my exam" i could visualise my own math teacher standing in the corner...

i am not making any sense today!

20 August, 2006

Its been a year... nearly! No not even close. Brings a smile and a tear. This is the first time i am thinkin this is a burden. To have so many things hidden from plain sight! Running away??? Not a chance!

*ka boom*

15 August, 2006

i saw KANK yesterday!!! some great soul did the editing for us! Bless the guy!

but one scene in the movie kinda made sense. i dunno yet whether i believe it or not. Life changes due to circumstances. that pulls the chord where we think our decisions control our life. i am not saying that the choices we make dont lead to 'circumstances' but this arguement is that circumstances form and we are forced to choose.
well i have this one situation. but circumstances beyond my control are moving the pawns. actually no! i can change that. but i dunno whether the path is right? worth travelling on?

Sometimes u cant promise cuz of the fear u wont be able to keep up but when ure frightened that that u wont be able to keep it up, hearts break!!! hurting more than the fact that u mite not be able to keep up the promise...

*Total annhilation*

MySORE trip

Su and I struggled outta the soft cozy bed covers on a sunday morning! Saturday passed so swiftly! Good fun...Bath took us both less than ten min!!! wonder whether the water even hit us??? with the cold mornin upon us i really dont rememmber!(pathetic excuse)
Went and woke up an auto man!(revenge for all those days they asked for extra money, bust their sleep)

THEN came the hit in the face... a mega huge queue for the tickets. the trrain which was leaving at 6.30, a line with more than 30 people and we arrive at 6.20. well u can guess what happened next! not exactly!!! our luck came a knocking. acually OPENING the other counter. HAlf the crowd rushed to the other line. Su was that many people closer to the counter... our hearts raced. "Maybe we can just make it in to the train"

WE made it, we made it... finally got the tickets. we ran towards the platform only to see the train pull away from the station. HORRIBLE feeling! anyway we caught the next train which thankfully was at 7AM. half an hour late! dint make a difference for me. the best trip ever! i slept like a rock. dint know the world around me... if there was a bomb on the train, i wuld ve died peacefully!!! ;) anyone wants to talk abt the worst case scenario- gotto hell...

Jumpin the time travel, we reach the infosys campus!!! one word : MASSIVE !!! brilliance ... from half priced food items to a multiplex theatre, basketball courts, and resort like rooms. A building made with projections. if u connect those 3D point u will get narayan murthy's signature!!! engineers!!! pah!!

after a tiring day of walkin around the 350 acres of land(i dont think we touched even quarter of it) we caught the 5PM train. and VOILA!! no seats available and wer we sit??? on the luggage counter on top of the seats in the train. very funny wen you and ure friend are perched up the train. unforgettable!!!

ConFeSsiONs oF a DANGEROUS (never) MiNd

11 August, 2006

We all have our DirtY little Secrets. Hidden facts. Even if youre best of friends! You may deny this fact but they know its not true, cause they ve some too...

I was reading this book 'can you keep a secret' by sophie someone(sorry abt tat! cant rem her last name at all!) Very interesting and you get a sense of satisfaction, an inborn pleasure of knowing something that no one else will ever know! takin it to your grave The 'soul'(bubbling with secrets) in a particularly 'hazardous'( thinks its fatal) situation barfs her inner most thoughts and desires to her co-passenger, who by shheerr tuf luck turns out to be her "superboss." The best part is how the boss(hero!!!)twists these lil secrets of hers to fit into her daily life without another soul figuring out the 'depths' of their conversations.

The most exhilarating part of any book, in my opinion, is when u can actually picture yourself in that situation. Speculations of how I would react in a situation like that. funny circumstances; or grave ones. this particular book was doubly exciting cause I can see a lotta me in her! The things running in her head, in mine...


1. The only form of water I dont like is the RAIN (*gasp*)

2. I dont lik surprises (most of it cause i usually find out!)
SPONTANIETY suprises me; Suprises DON'T

3. I am selfish. wont share unless i think ive had enuf of it myself! (going to get me into the deppths of shit!!! fooling around with english)

4. I cry at/for anything remotely emotional when I am alone.

5. SO many secrets swooshed into my head when i started the first point. Just cant bring myself to confess!!!

* Vanilla inspiration *


08 August, 2006

Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of 97... wear sunscreen.
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be IT.
The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience.

I will dispense this advice now.

ENJOY THE POWER AND BEAUTY OF YOUR YOUTH. Never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years youll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you cant grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked.

You are NOT as fat as you imagine.

DONT WORRY ABOUT THE FUTURE ;) or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.



Dont be reckless with other people's hearts, don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.


Don't waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long, and in the end, its only with yourself.


Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.


Dont feel guilty if you dont know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didnt know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still dont.

Get plenty of calcium.

Be kind to your knees, youll miss them when they're gone.

Maybe youll marry, maybe you wont, maybe you'll have children, maybe you wont, maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself, either. Your choices are half chance, so are everybody else's. Enjoy your body, use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.

DANCE!!! Even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.

Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.

Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents, you never know when they'll be gone for good.

Be nice to your siblings; they are your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go, but for the precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography in lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.


Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old, and when you do you'll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.


Don't mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen.
(baz lurhman- one of the best ever!!!)

Words !

04 August, 2006

I said to my soul, BE STILL, and wait without hope.
For hope would be hope for the wrong thing, and wait without love;
For love, would be love for the wrong thing; there is yet faith.
But the faith, and the hope and the love are all in the waiting.
And so the darkness shall be light, and the stillness, the dancing.
(T.S Elliot)

Choose well. Your choice is Brief, and Yet Endless.

Bunking Class

01 August, 2006

Zoomed into the college waving at the watchman who smiled back, unsure, unsure whether he has seen us(danny and mua) in college. Strolled out of the parking lot, talkin loudly about, as usual, nothin at all.
First pit stop: FOOD COURT
the sweet smell of freshly brewed coffee whiffed thru the air. sigh!!! met ashwin and laughed at tis silly jokes. Laughed so loudly that everyone knew that we were new (or old)to college or askin for trouble. NOT in proper dress code, HUGGING each other as a sing of greeting(???????)
Second Pit stop: MEDIA DEPT
second home more like it. though there ve been certain extra fittings:-) still feels the same
Third Pit stop: PSYCHO DEPT
We always knew why all the students jus love Swarna ma'am and this visit jus reaffirmed it... lovely talkin to her.

Then danny, biny and I jus sat under the shady tree in kiosk, kiosk chetta recognised us ;-) heheheee... those steel chairs, slippin ass, cool breeze! not long ago!!! We were enjoyin every moment of it when suddenly it felt we had BUNKED the two o clock class and were waitin to attend the three to four class. WE never did that when we were in college why shouldit be any different after paasin out???
we tuk off...
flew away...
Raise your Shoulders and Fall back on your Knees, Piss through a Dime For the Whole World Sees