Homeward bound???

11 June, 2007

I was just beginning to post my resume on Times Job and they had asked for my CV. As I browsed through my CV and saw that the address written is obviously of where I am staying at the moment which is in Harrow, London. So in the process I typed my old home address. As I was typing I felt pangs of Horror. I CANT GO BACK TO INDIA. I just cant go back and work there for a meager salary and enjoy a simple life. I want extravagance. I want to live in a posh place with ofcourse my friends and family nearby, which I wont have if I stay back in London. But the point is that I can always go back to India but its mighty difficult to come to London and start from scratch!! OH MY GOD help me. I really want to stay back but then I really need also a breather to go back home and visit my friends, family; a small outing and then I can come back to work here for some years. Probably I might want to travel to USA and work there one day!!

But I am literally being torn apart!!! I WANT TO STAY BACK HERE but I also want to go back. I think I will never be satisfied with India. I dont want to blame my lack of rising ambition or stature on the country that has borne me for so many years!!! I cant get myself to go back to India and say I am home!!! cuz I AM AT HOME NOW!!! :-)

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Anonymous said...

No matter where you are, make the best of it lover..

vidi said...

DONT come back yet!! as much as i miss my singing partner, you are my only link to u.k babyyy!! get a super job, get rich and then get all your friends there.. now that is a plan, extravagant and you have your family by your side!! :)

pRicky said...

to be or not to be...
that my friend is the question...
but is it?
or are you just lazy to wrte the indian address or is it cause u have forgotten it??? ;-)
I have damn it :-|

Me Thinks.. said...

my dear old gemini!
when have you ever separated yourself from your twin??? ;)

Prude said...

Well the deciding factor will come ur way soon enuf...hang in there!

crumbs said...

hmmm...what i actually felt while reading this is a tinge of sadness tsu...
i'm immenesly happy that you found a place you could call home :) but a part of me is sad that is not here :(
but i guess what works for you is what's important. the thing with friends is that they are there no matter where you are, so your friends will always be around...but it is hard to actually find place that you can call home...the people not withstanding
i'm happy for you :)

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